I am not sure exactly what form this blog will take, but so far, it is my diary in a way. I have been handwriting a diary to my son so this is maybe more of a diary for my "under construction" self. Before having a baby, I felt funny, talented, smart, decent at making friends, and just somewhat "together". UMMM... Now as a mom, I am still sortof smart- somewhere in my brain- my intelligence is hiding. I, like all new mothers, have lost all privacy, sleep, time alone, and the ability to figure out what I would like to accomplish in this lifetime (the 2nd half anyway). One accomplishment would be to be the best mother in the world (I am trying!) but in my humble opinion, I will probably be a better mother when I am making an impact outside my home too. I HAVE figured out that I want to raise our child rather than work (conventional 8am-5pm type work), but I WOULD like to find my "calling" so to speak. But no JOKE- I am sooooooo far from figuring this out. SO maybe this blog will help.... be my DIARY IN SEARCH OF SELF PURPOSE. I know whatever it is that comes in my path is from God and I am blessed beyond words for everything in my life- including the mistakes or set backs. I am blessed!!!!!!
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